Brokenness

I am at a place in my life where I feel completely broken, I’ve got things going on inside me that have left me with no choice but to place my trust in God. I’ve had to say bye to some very close friends, endured criticism for some of the things i do etc and it has really left me feeling broken. Im not broken because of one problem but its like a bee sting, one is bad but a whole swarm really hurts.

Could it be that God allowed these trials to happen to me so he could get my attention? Could it be that is the cost of being a Christian? Sometimes as christians we can become lukewarm but when we decide to get on fire for God, Satan finds a way to quench that fire. Other times we think we can live life on our own strength and so God allows trials to come upon our lives.

Either way…Its easy to remain broken once we have been hit with trials, its easy to start saying things like, “I’ve tried but its so hard”… “I’m just not good enough”… “why is my life so hard” but its another thing when we see these trials as an opportunity to depend 100% on God and be used mightily for him. Not that we have to do anything to get Gods love.

we have been justified through faith, we have peace with God through our Lord Jesus Christ, through whom we have gained access by faith into this grace in which we now stand. Romans 5:1

It starts with believing God’s promises [You gotta believe] and calling out to God for grace to make it though life. I was tempted to ask God to take away my trials but I decided to pray “Lord..break me down, strip me down until all I can do is depend on you and give me the grace to serve you”On my way home I bumped into a friend and told him how broken I was and he smiled and told me, “thats a great place to be” I smiled and remembered the words of Eric Mason “Brokenness is the mark of a person that is qualified to be used by God”.

We are getting ready for a heavy season of spreading the gospel between June -August and its so timely how I go through these kind of trials. I could see these trials as a time to loose hope and be luke warm and take care of my own needs or I can see it as an attempt to get my eye’s off God and the good things he has for my life. God is calling us to wage war against the work of satan. Satan is working in our lives as we see trials as an excuse to sin, he is at work in sinners who don’t know they are under Satan’s control and headed to hell. He is at work convincing people to loose hope.

I am hard pressed on every side, but not crushed; perplexed, but not in despair; persecuted, but not abandoned; struck down, but not destroyed. I am making war against the enemy this summer by rejoicing in my trials. I am rejoicing because I know that suffering produces perseverance; perseverance, character; and character, hope. And hope does not disappoint us, because God has poured out his love into our hearts by the Holy Spirit, Will you rejoice in your brokenness and be used mightily for God?

Posted by Baliva